I have a ritual. A ritual for sleeping. Many nights sleep doesn’t come easy for me. I have a tough time turning my brain off. Herbal supplements give me night terrors. Reading draws me into the words. What does work is music.
I prepare for bed the same way every night. I lay atop my blankets, on my back, in only my boxer briefs. I prefer pitch-blackness and the drone of a distant fan. On nights where sleep evades me, I plug earbuds into my head and listen to a carefully selected playlist at the lowest volume my iPhone allows.
The other night I reached for my earbuds. I had left a window open by accident. It was one of those wicked cold nights. A night you would not want to leave a window open. My Norge blood keeps me warm on the coldest of nights and I can never start a night under a blanket, I would just get too hot. I always wake up cold in the middle of the night and cover up then. On this night the music took me to dreamland, but I stayed cold under my blankets,even after I tucked under. Sometime later, this happened…
I was naked in a snow storm. Large fluffy flakes blowing violently, nearly parallel to the snow covered ground. I was frozen to the core. Beyond anything I could ever imagine. Numb. Shaking spastically. The sky was the blackest of black. I walked on, going nowhere, on this flat nothingness. I could see no end, no horizon. I didn’t know where I was or where to go.
Then from a distance I heard a sound creeping into my brain. A familiar sound, getting louder and louder. It was a song. A favorite song of mine. Suddenly I walked with purpose. The song enveloped me like a heavy, warm blanket. Protected me. It let me know I was going to be okay. The snow leveled out falling from straight above. Large,lazy flakes, like soft cotton. The blacked sky turned to pink then orange as the bright sun broke on the horizon, and the last flakes fizzled out.
Then I woke up. It was early morning and I was snuggled under my warm blankets. I could see my breath. That’s when I realized I had left the window open. I have never had anything like that happen before. This song pulled me from a nightmare. Saved me. Music is amazing.